Friday, 8 April 2011


Everythings getting so stressful, what with our deadlines comming closer and our exams are nearly here! I can't wait for it all to be over so I can enjoy America, Blink 182 and Katy Perry! I've decided what I want to do for my big 18th (which isn't for another 2 years 1 month and 8 days hahaha) but I'm going to organise a charity sky dive for me and some friends and raise some money for a charity that means the most to me, which will probably be cancer research :D and then whatever money I have left over from my birthday I'll give to charity! I also what to organise doing the race for life this year because I think its a really inspirational charity and they've done so much for my family! But anyway I'm going to right some more later because I'm going to watch extreme makeover home edition, <3

Tuesday, 29 March 2011

forever in my heart.

When I come to the end of the road
And the sun has set for me,
I want no tears in a gloom-filled room,
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little – But not for long
And not with your head bowed low,
Remember the love that we once shared,
Miss me – But let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take,
And each must go alone,
It’s all a part of the Master’s plan
A step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart
Go to your friends that we know,
And bury your sorrows in doing good works,
Miss me – But let me go.

My dad read this for my Grandads funeral, and its been stuck in my head all day, so I thought I'd right a little about him;

Grandad, you were an extremely special person to me. Knowing you were just a phone call away everyday, whenever I needed cheering up, made me so strong. I couldn't believe when you left us, I couldn't even cry, i just froze, and the person I wanted to phone up to tell me it would all be okay, was no longer there. I can't believe its nearly 3 years! But I'm not going to think of the bad things, I want to write all the happy things.
                            I remember as a child arriving at your house, and you'd run to the door and we'd all jump on you, then you'd make us a drink, and give us a sneaky biscuit without granny knowing :L aww you always made me laugh. And then we'd go into the garden, to the well and feed the fishes. We still do that now, with oliver included, and every time we do it, i think of you, and I smile. Then we'd have our traditional sausage rolls, triangle sandwiches, and lilt, that again still lives on, but it was the best part of the trip! You'd get all grannys teddys down and we'd sit and play with them for ages and you'd make up silly stories and give them funny names, so funny that one time I fell off my chair laughing, and then you got a telling off from granny! You always use to do gardening I remember that as if it was yesterday, i guess thats where i get it from, and you'd help us with the hose, and help me spray tom muahahaha. I have so many pictures, so many amazing memories. Your Glaswegian accent always got me laughing, I could never understand you, with your "wee grandaughter" and stuff!  Sleepovers were the best, you'd bring us up sweets and tell us bedtime stories, and you gave the best goodnight cuddles. You are a huge inspiration to me, and you were such a brave man, living the life that you had to. The one thing that hurt me the most in dads speech, was when he spoke about the time you came over to see oliver when he was born, and you and dad went in the garden, and you told him if you were to die that moment, you'd die the happiest man, because you have everything you want, the greatest family, the greatest friends, and thats all you needed, and it pains me the most was the way you had to die, forgetting everything, because we all knew that was the one thing you dreaded most. In some ways I'm glad you were set free, because you became so unhappy, not knowing any of us, and that was the hardest thing for me, seeing you look at me with a blank expression, the smile you once had gone, but at least up there you'd remember all those happy times. I hope your looking down on us, making sure were all okay, I like to think you are. Everything I do, I do to make you proud, and I hope you would be. A day doesn't go by where I don't think about you or miss you. You were the best grandad any girl could ask for, and I am honoured to be your only one. You will always be in our hearts, gone but never ever forgotten. Love you grandad! <3

Thursday, 24 March 2011

bestest baby brother in the world.



Can't even be bothered wasting my time on you anymore, ahaha! Don't you hate when people change? and you have no reason why, because they don't tell you if you've done anything wrong. Ergh hate it so much! Your just so rude, you know exactly what you're doing, and I'm not going to play along with your stupid little games anymore, because I know for a fact you're laughing at me, well LOL the jokes on you because I know what you've been doing.

I'm not going to let silly people get me down all evening from now on, sick of tearing up, being moody, and going to sleep because I don't know what else to do.

I'd also like to add how inspiring I find my friends! There all such good people, and they really know how to make me happy. Elinor, Tia, Holly, Alika, Ashi, Batoul, Charlie, Taegan, Rachel, John, Charlie and Pardis and lots of other people, your all so great, and amazing, and you make my life really happy :D

Sunday, 20 March 2011

Comic Relief.

Such a good cause. Shows how much we actually have yet were so selfish and aren't grateful for what we got and we always want more. Its amazing what this charity has done and how many lives they've saved, but people are still dieing and we need to still help! So inspirational, cried throughout! :')

Hahahah my picture is just showing how i spent my day in school, minus the red lips, and the red nose was only for half the day, because i had my pirate one har har har, but yeah, no makeup, ewww, my hair isnt greasy, i just got in from the rain.


I forgot to mention my fears below hahaha.
Wasps and bees (allergic to them)
Cheese graters!
Soggy Bread!
Blood and slicing my finger open
Rejection :)

50 random useless facts about me.

1. I live in Cardiff, even though my dad was born in England but his mum is irish and dad is scottish, and my mum was born in singapore but her dad is english and her mum is half norweigian i think :S

2.My family are everything to me, without them, life would be a bitch.

3. I have known my best friend since I was about 3, and I'm going to know her for the rest of my life.

4. I have fucked up teeth and a fucked up jaw which I'm having an operation on soon. The teeth is probably because i drink too much dr pepper, and coca cola cherry, which I've had 5 cans of in the last 6 hours, oh dear.

5. I go to cathays high school which has a bad reputation but I'm personally proud of going there because the teachers are all really nice and you can speak to them.

6. I want to take a gap year before or after uni, either to Arizona, America with my god father, or Africa with Save the children.

7. I want to be a primary school teacher because I love kids, I want to have a baby, but I know its not a good time now, and would be unfair.

8. I'm quite a shy person, but when I know you I'm really loud and hyper!

9. There are many special people in my life, my extra specials are elinor, tia, ashi, alika, holly, rachel, taegan and batoul!

10. I really really really want a jack russell :(

11. I feel like I'm a bit on the big side but everyone tells me I'm not but sometimes I just feel like an elephant, and I put on weight so easily.

12. I love chinese food, egg fried rice ftw.

13. I've never ever truly loved someone, because I'm always scared they'll lie or cheat on me.

14. I have quite a big trust problem, even though everyone around me are the most trustworthy people.

15. I cry easily, because its the easiest thing to do, and because when I argue with someone i hate it, because it's usually with someone I love

16. I'm not the most popular person, but I have all the friends I need.

17. I love James Marsden, Mark Salling, Justin Bieber and Zac Efron!

18. I find men that are musical extremely attractive, especially guitar and singing, ahahaha at the above!

19. I am very optimistic.

20. I'm up for anything, and once I'm in a game I want to win, its my Williamson streak.

21. One of the most devastating things to happen to me was my aunty being diagnosed with cancer, because she is an amazing woman, and people say were really alike and we just get on well, and what made it worse was the day she discovered it we were all camping in her field, and she didnt tell anyone.

22. I am no longer talking to my other aunty because she hasn't phoned up my other aunty to see how she is, she hasn't gone to visit her even though she doesn't live that far, whereas my mum has been up a few times even though its like 3 hours away, and she has us kids to look after.

23. Most of my cousins work on tv like back stage and stuff and have met some pretty awesome people, like bieber!

24. The person I aspire to be like is my mum as she is the kindest, loveliest person ever, and she still giggles like a child, and hasn't lost the magic of christmas, I love her silly amounts.

25. I am no longer giving a shit about what I look like. I haven't worn makeup to school for 3 days, rather proud.But I still hate the way I look and would change many things if i was magic.

26. I love having nice clothes and in summer I buy too many summer dresses.

27. This year is going to be amazing, its my 16th, america, katy perry, blink 182, derulo, prom and tattoo.

28. My dad loves music and always shows me awesome songs, and we look very alike, how embaressing.

29. Im generally a nice person, unless you really annoy me, or Im in a bad mood.

30. I love romantic films although they make me sad because nobody loves me </3

31. Sometimes i try to hard with people.

32. I make a dick of myself alot but I don't care because I'm having fun.

33. I still prance around my living room doing dances, and put on shows for my mum, and when I go to like r.a.f camps i fly around pretending to be a plane because I'm still holding on to my childhood.

34. I am overly obsessed with glee! It is the best programme ever!

35. I can sing, and I am grade 4 on the violin even though i haven't played in ages.

36. One of the best times of my life was the school musical, so much fun with my homies josey, pardis, josie, holly, georgina and the boys!

37. I'm a very untidy person, my mums now decided to tidy my room once a week, so then it doesn't take her ages to do it after like a month.

38. My big brother is like a best friend to me, because we like alot of the same things, we argue like any siblings should, but he is so awesome, and bitches to me :L

39. I hate the amount of hate and war and pain in this world! I give quite alot to charity, and videos of what happens really hits home and makes me angry and upset!

40. I couldnt live without my ipod or my phone because I always have them with me.

41. I have alot of respect for people who don't care what people think about them, and they'll say there opinion no matter how much hate they could get for it (batoul)

42. I love listening to a song over and over again for hours.

43. I like making people smile.

44. I hate it when people are rude about people who are disabled and gay, i have a cousin who is both, and he is amazing!

45. I use to consider myself a christian but that has changed because of all the horrible stuff in the world. I would like to be a buddhist and am going to speak to granny liz (taegans buddhist step nan) hehe

46. I would love to be in a serious relationship but I think most boys find me unattractive and only see me as a friend or someone funny

47. Im extremely happy with my life, there have been problems but they've all just made me stronger!

48. I don't sleep in my bed without cuddling my teddy honeysuckle :L

49. I need to get drunk more often because its fun.

50. I've died either once or twice and have been close to it a few more time, but they brought me back to life :L (couldnt think of a last one)